JVJ came to a wall, trapped as he tried to escape and realizing that Javert had intended to lead him here all along. “He looked up into the sky in despair.”
As I have met with friends in various troubled times of anxiety, the best words that I have received are those that convince me that my perception is distorted, that things are not as bad as they might seem to me in this moment, and that almost always what I am worried about will not happen. One friend asked me to extrapolate: What is the worst that could possibly happen? Could you deal with that? I have looked at the wall, and I have looked up and cried out. And things have turned out all right up until today.
But we all know that dire earthly circumstances must befall us, and this temporary life will not last. Yes, we believe we will live on after our bodies, but what can this exercise of facing the trapped corners of this life on earth then mean if it is not to derive benefit from the process itself? It is the story of it all that is the point. Love is demonstrated in the dynamics of living. Win or lose – its only temporary, because the game board will for certain be closed up one day. Yes, I can raise the standard of earthly living of those around me, but if I am not looking up outside of the game it doesn’t matter.
For the Lord of Creation became part of creation showing that He cares that we suffer and strive. This care assures us that the suffering has meaning and will one day be perceived as valuable. So I will look up when I come to walls. I will ask for solutions but anxiously trust that my looking up, crying out, and paying attention is the main point of the perceived wall.