“Mirror, mirror on the wall.” The things we say to ourselves when we are troubled are usually rationalizations from a dream world. The wicked queen insisted on being told what she wanted to hear.
As Anna Karenina careens on her downward spiral, she desperately wants to see her son Serozhya whom she had abandoned for her passions. And even her eventual visit was more about her than him. She is rebuffed at her request, and then as she steams over her rejection letter, it comes to her: the means of thought to blame someone else and even put herself as superior: “at least I don’t lie”. And the foolishness of this rationalization is lost on her so much that she immediately decides to deceive the butler in order to see the boy.
We say things to ourselves so that we can feel good about doing evil by being selfish or ignoring someone else’s needs. We reassure ourselves in irrational ways to live lives of ease and comfort, avoiding real sacrifice and commitment.
Listen to your heart… at your own peril.